some awesome things

merry late Christmas! oh boy, it is still my favourite holiday. the decorations and lights all over New York City, the food, the weather, the food, it all just makes me go starry-eyed! even without the presents, i just love it! oh, and it's New Year's Eve!! woohoo! =D ...wait, i don't like New Year's. oops. D=. much better.

anywho, here are some awesome things i wanted to post:
1. The Sultan's Elephant/The Little Girl Giant

so creepy, yet SO AWESOME!!!!! it would be so cool to work with the Royal de Luxe theatre company. they are totally boss.

2. 朱孝天- la la la
i wanted to put the video directly in my entry so badly, but embed for this vid is disabled and i can't find a link that has embedding enabled. ;_; but anyway, he is beautiful and we are married in my head. (volume's a little loud for this vid, so be careful!) and yes, Lisa, i am still in love with him. you can stop asking.

3. we now have Rockband!!! it is so epic. i love to play the drums! Izumi, i wanted to tell you sooner so you could come over and play, but i think you're in the country or something? anywho call me.

and now for some things that are totally un-awesome:
1. Cat weighs about ten pounds less than i do.

2. Ken and Cat are the same weight. i officially weigh ten pounds more than both my siblings.

3. coloring is a pain in the ass.


so yeah, that's about it for now! happy almost 2009! (yuck.)

now is not the time.

reading everybody's blog entries makes me think; wow, all my friends are such good writers. i wish i could express my thoughts half as beautifully as them. school just got out yesterday (or two days ago, i guess. since it's 2:40 AM), i wrote a spectacularly sub-par (and over one page shorter than the required length) final paper of 2008, but i am done with the schoolwork of the year! i just feel like i shouldn't be thinking this. hmm.

it's been a really good day, though! after waking up to a blizzard outside my window (it was super pretty!), i went to Danny's house to bake gingerbread (could she get any cuter?). other than being a little bummed at finding out then that besides me, only two other people decided to attend (out of the original something-teen), i had an extremely good time and constructed a very nice gingerbread house, if i do say so myself (other than the fact that i forgot to cut a door out of it, so it's basically a gingerbread prison. very Hansel and Gretel, if you ask me). it also took me so long that i got them late to their dinner reservation (sorry, guys. Dx). i forgot Greg was so tall.

i also haven't done any Christmas shopping at all. sorry...

in other news, AS;LDKFJAS;D IZUMI IS COMING BACK IN LESS THAN A WEEK. excitement! fiesta!! too bad i don't get to see her first like i had hoped. dummyhead. (by the way, the place we usually order Chinese food from closed. we'll need to find another.)

i forgot what i was going to say next. xD

my main reason for wanting to update was the video below. i've been meaning to post it for over a week.

yey! 8D

come on, you guys.

am i seriously the ONLY one who finds Ken Chu attractive? (THIS IS NOT AN INVITATION FOR SASS.)

so i hear he's kind of weird looking in Meteor Garden (by the way i am going to watch it over break and will probably disagree), but if you disregard that and look at him completely objectively, watch some music videos, etc. he is actually very cute.

besides, he has ample inner beauty, okay?! >_>;; uh and from what i gather, he has a cute personality... (this is why i am a straight C History/English student. i am not a persuasive person.) he really does win, though. he cooks, is fluent in English (and aside from Mandarin also speaks Cantonese, Singlish, Indonesian, Thai and Japanese), and has three kitties!! 8D oh and apparently he's a world champion at tai chi... which is odd, but still kind of awesome.

i just think he's really cute in general... oh gosh.

and one more thing: FRIENDS DON'T CALL THE MEN OF FRIENDS' DREAMS SMARMY. you wound me, Lisa. to my very soul.

F4 love gush...

so i know i've been bothering everyone i know about this all weekend, but HOLY CRAP I LOVE F4.

i haven't even gotten around to watching Meteor Garden yet, but i am totally smitten by them. yeah i know, i should really get on that, calling myself an Asian drama fan but not having seen MG (the classic!). but Junior year is taking its toll on me, i think. i still try to be as happy and peppy of a person as possible and spread the energy to my equally sleep-deprived and jaded classmates, but ah, i miss the days when i could just sit back and watch 花样少年少女 without having to worry about schoolwork (that much anyway)!

i feel like we're all growing a little weary, so let's just relax for a bit and watch some F4.



hope you enjoy it, i certainly find it very therapeutic. ^^

oh, Ken/朱孝天. i would marry you faster than i can say "嫁给我吧." i don't care if you're twenty nine and slowly getting old and fat. u_u

anywho, i am really tired. life is still beautiful, though (but geez is the weather getting cold!!). i'm happy to be alive. =)



and one more thing while we're still on the F4 train, to directly quote Vanness' blog thing:

God is SUPERDUPER~!

"J.CHRIST~ 4 LIFE!!!"

...what a funny guy. xD with facial hair, he looks like the guy from V for Vendetta. 8D (the proof is at the right) hahahahaha~

--

p.s. it worries me that i checked the history of the supersketchy love letter email my classmates and i sent my Mandarin teacher, and it says she forwarded it to someone... o_0;

if 6 was 9

i want to live in a magical kingdom where i can wear shirts like this and this, and not have people give me weird looks...

oh wait, such a mystical land already exists. it's called Asia.

i love some good bad grammar/nonsensical English on apparel.

wish list

am i so selfish that i'm already thinking of what i want for Christmas? >_< anywho, just thought i'd make a wish list now for my own personal reference. will update it randomly as interesting things show themselves. =)

i'm sure some of these things can be found on eBay. haha Ken likes using eBay (or at least looking things up on it). i say it's cheaper, plus it's exciting! 8D anywho, the actual list.

-五月天 CD's! their newest one! (i've also been trying to get their fifth album, but i currently want the most recent one more, haha!)
-the movie Batanes on DVD. (English subs please? ;_;) it's got two of my favourite things, Ken Chu and Filipino people! what more could i ask for? xD
-WongFu Productions shirts: [1] [2] [3]
-Jesse McCartney related things. >_> any of his albums (i don't own any!), an autograph, membership to his official fan club?! i dunno, anything. i'm so pathetic, i hate me. xD;;;
-Clazziquai CD- Instant Pig
-G Gundam! all of it. xD been wanting this for a while heh heh.
-Ken Chu's first album- On Ken's Time. he has a beautiful soul. and we are married in my head.
-Super Junior stuff? merch is awesome. i don't really know what (do they have a new calendar yet?), but i find this strange yet oddly alluring... [1]
-Miami Ink on DVD
-fashionable clothes? as frumpy as i am, i do appreciate a cute outfut. the fact that i'm taking interest in pretty/tasteful clothing is a pleasant surprise. i don't own any, though. ;_; also, a lot of these things would look weird on me, i just think they're pretty. u_u stuff like this in general... it's all pretty random/incohesive, but hopefully you get the gist. [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8]
-world peace
-Izumi to come home! and again!
-whatever! :)

confusion

what would you do?

let's just create a hypothetical Person X and a hypothetical Person Y. the two met very briefly in person, and communicate entirely through the internet. and let's just say that last year, Person X and Person Y were tight pals on really great terms; good laughs, long conversations, etc. then one day, kinda out of the blue, Person X stops talking to Person Y. Person X no longer responds to Person Y's comments, emails etc. and communication just ceases. a month or so later, Person X kinda says sorry, they were busy. after that, all of Person X's replies to Person Y are considerably shorter than they used to be- from paragraphs to a few words each. Person Y loses hope, and doesn't contact Person X for a couple of months. then there is another attempt at interaction, and another failure. a few more months pass, and Person Y just wants to hear something, anything from Person X. Person Y just wants to know how Person X has been, and to let Person X know they still care. should Person Y even try, or will it just lead to another imminent disappointment?

this is absolutely no big deal, just feeling a little confused...

SVA, how i miss thee

i miss SVA so much. that's School of Visual Arts, for anyone who doesn't know. like everyone who keeps asking me about my "SVA proud parent" pin... >_>;

i met some of the best people at SVA this summer, i miss them all a lot. they are all so talented, and they are all such characters! there was never a boring moment with them, i think. =) (except maybe during Thursday figure drawing?) it's rare to have that many people with a common interest around you, so it was really a treat. it was also really nice to see everyone else's drawing styles and interests within cartooning as a whole! man, i miss that place. every time i pass by the SVA area (whether it be on the subway, passing 23rd street or in the car), i go, "SVAAAAA. TAKE ME BAAAAAAAACK." oh, and i also miss the Asian bakery like right next door to SVA. their cake was so yummy. ._.

anywho, i almost forgot to write the main point of my entry! last night (well actually it was more like this noontime) i had a dream that i was in my room with a bunch of my SVA friends from the Summer, and we were going to get bubble tea. like somehow we were going to have it delivered to my house. so i was asking everyone what kind they wanted, but they kept giving me really weird flavours. like "penguin" and "cat with a funny costume." ...i didn't really know what to do. and then my dad screamed at me and woke me up before i got to figure out what i would have done. this upsets me. D:

yum. cat with a funny costume bubble tea.

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herbal lemonade?

i just put a henna design on my arm, and decided to seal the henna with a lemon juice and sugar mixture so it'll last longer (equal parts lemon and sugar, for anyone who wants the recipe~). after applying the solution with a cotton ball, i then proceeded to add water to the condensed lemonade and drink it. after i'd dipped the cotton ball in it multiple times, wiped said cotton ball all over my henna and everything. :D

it's the simple pleasures in life that help us get by, no?

(it tasted good, by the way. and not like henna, though i'll admit i've always wanted to know what that tastes like. it just smells so herbal and nice! =D)

oh and also, i almost just sent an email to my English teacher addressing her as "Sher Bear" (an endearing and cuddly nickname for Sherri). i tried typing it into the "To:" portion of the compose email window and realized, "wait, i don't think that's in the directory..."

to Kenneth's fans

today he managed to accidentally drop my mother's key card to the gym down an elevator shaft (like into the tiny crack between the floor and the elevator)...

what a clever and talented little brother i have.

festival! henna cramps/right hand appreciation

on a lighter note, today was the Asian Awareness festival!! yaaaay. after all the work Megan, Melanie and i put into it, it was a huge relief (though kind of scary!) to have the event actually happen. Izumi, i think it'd please you to know that we projected a movie onto the screen in the Assembly Hall, and it was Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. :) i lent the DVD to Ms. Marcus, since she wanted to see it. xD

i'm a little sad about the festival on just a personal level, though. i worked at the henna booth for all three hours, not once taking a break. i didn't really mind, i wasn't that tired or bored. it's just that... i didn't see anyone. apparently a bunch of people i know came, and i never saw any of them. not even the Collegiate ACS heads, even though they apparently came with a group (come to think of it, i didn't see the group, either). i like didn't look up from the table once and nobody stopped by to say hi. i dunno; i wasn't bored running the table, just a little lonely.

i didn't see many of my friends during the festival itself, but i guess i did get something out of it. in the process of preparing four pounds of sago pearls for bubble tea, i got to hang out with the kitchen staff. i'm obsessed with them. but moreover, i got to hang out with the guy who always carves the turkey/ribs/porkloin/steak for us at lunch! I LOVE HIM. i want to be his best friend forever. and now i know, his name is Enrique. :D <3

anywho, the main point of my entry was supposed to be that doing henna for three hours straight me realize how thankful i am for my right hand. since i spent so long clenching the henna tube/cone with my fist to get the henna paste out, there were four or five instances between tattoos (i didn't stop the whole time o_0) when i'd pull the cone out of my right hand with my empty left hand, and was unable to open my right hand. all my fingers stayed closed against my will (it was exactly like the Friends episode where Chandler's hand gets stuck like a claw from playing too much Ms. Pacman)... a couple of times i asked my classmates (whoever was closest at the time) to open my hand for me, and homg it hurt! xD i was not expecting that kind of pain when i started doing the henna, hahaha (i was like, "this wasn't in my job description!"). i was jokingly expecting to get carpal tunnel or something, but it made me think (see, i think too much lately!). if by some twist of fate i lost my right hand someday, i wouldn't be able to do any of my hobbies. i mean, theoretically speaking i could train myself to draw/play badminton with my left hand, but it'd no doubt take a very long time and be very frustrating, as well as require a lot of patience/dedication that i don't have. if only i were still ambidextrous... too bad my father beat all the left-handedness out of me hahahaha.

i have since regained full control of my right hand, and this pleases me immensely.

how cool would it be if my hand were sore tomorrow? i think it sounds pretty awesome. it's a pretty sweet accomplishment to have a sore hand from doing henna. 8D

p.s. Lisa, regarding your comment on my earlier post. HE LIKES STEAMPUNK. don't you think it's fate? i've missed you a lot while you were gone, by the way.

respect

so i've just been thinking a lot lately. a lot more than usual, i don't know why.

on monday, my China and Japan history class went on the annual trip to Chinatown. we went to a gym where we did kung fu/tai chi (even though the walls were like all windows, so random people just stood outside and watched us @_@), went on a walking tour of the area, talked to a Buddhist monk and had dinner at Joe's Shanghai (HOMG 小笼包). i feel like visiting the monk wasn't really a part of the trip that other people liked much, but it really got my brain juices pumping. the monk we met is a really happy and friendly guy and for me, it was just a pleasure to be around him (i don't know, i think i absorbed his happy aura or something? anywho it just felt good and very calming). he mentioned that part of the reason he became a monk was that when he was visiting a temple with his friend, he saw the other monks and thought they looked so happy and knowledgeable, and wanted to be like them (also he liked movies involving fighting shaolin monks and the like xD). i feel this kind of admiration, too; they just seem so pure, kind and wise. i wish i could be like them, too. anywho, when someone in the class asked him what his biggest challenge in being a monk was, he said, "being lonely." he said that for training, he has to spend a lot of time alone meditating and distancing himself from others. hearing this from such a cheery guy was just heartbreaking for me. i don't know why, but it's been on my mind for a while now...

in other news, i am so lucky! i got to have bubble tea twice this week! yum yum, i love Quickly. <3 and i saw the same cute guy who works there again. :D

MARRY ME, PLEASE.

today, in Precalc, KP was randomly talking about new trends (that he thought it was too late for him to get in on, but that's not the point), and he said that he thought that steampunk was really cool/awesome. the rest of the class had a communal *blink blink* moment, followed by "wait, what the heck is steampunk?" as for me, as the only person i know about in the entire school who likes steampunk, KP's simple little remark made my heart leap like thirty feet. goodness gracious, i am soooo happy. my love for him knows no bounds.

my life is officially complete.

in other news...

HAPPY HALLOWEEN! =)

i want to go back so badly.

incoming rant.
so. last year, i attended the Student Diversity and Leadership Conference with three of my friends. after the three days were over and i returned home (where i stayed passionately SDLC-sick for over two months), i realized how truly blessed i was for having been able to attend. i feel like i gained a better understanding of myself and my opinions, and i had met a bunch of really great people. SDLC was like a second home for me, even though i had only been there for three days. i knew that given the chance, i would go back in a heartbeat. would. this year, more people signed up than the four of last year, and there is a limit for the program that only allows four students to attend (priority is of course given to students who have not gone). two girls who have never attended were picked, which i was okay with. they're my friends, i want them to have such a great experience themselves. but in addition, two of my friends from the year before were again selected. the other friend of mine who went to the conference last year is actually spending the year abroad in China; so, as the only girl who attended last year who wasn't selected again, i feel upset, left out, and so, so jealous. yeah, i'm happy for them that they get to go again, but i feel like i've never been more envious of anyone in my entire life. maybe if i had only pushed the head of my school to let me go, i would have been picked. so much resentment...

oh god, i am so jealous.

most useless entry ever

i am currently eating the most enjoyable guava of my entire life. i am so happy right now.

in other news, this "Scribe" layout reminds me of steampunk. i like it a lot. :)

okay, time to whip up some non-fail sauce and get to work! goodnight!

ten things

ten things you wish you could say to ten different people right now.

1. i miss you terribly. it has been a pretty long while since we last spoke, but maybe i just need to learn how to let you go. i'd really rather not, though; you're so dear to me that your absence kind of makes me feel like i've lost a part of myself. i hope you're not changing too much while you're away. thank you for always being there for me and making me feel like the weirdest person in the world, but at the same time kind of adequate. p.s. i'm SO sorry i haven't sent you any mail yet.
2. no doubt you're one of my best friends in the world, but sometimes i feel like you don't really want me around, that i'm just weighing you down. i sometimes get the vibe that you don't really want that hug, or to talk, and that you're just humouring me. please open up to me, let me know what's up. i really care about you.
3. i feel like out of all my schoolmates, you "get" me the most. i can always trust you to relate to what i'm trying to say, and you always seem to understand; even when i don't. your cuddles are incredibly comforting, and i'm not sure how i'd get through the day without them. and also, thanks for making me feel like i'm something special. at the same time, compliments and praise make me feel awfully uncomfortable... thank you, though.
4. i miss you so much. it's kind of odd that i still think of you so much, since it's been over three and a half years since you've left my life, but i can't help it. you've taught me so much and i really do miss you. your beautiful personality and strength amazed and inspired me. i'm sorry i haven't kept the promise i made to myself to do well in school after you left.
5. i can easily see you often, but still, i miss hanging out/goofing off with you, and the world just seems to be getting bigger and bigger without you here. now's the time when i should be learning to be independent, but i miss having a role model. who am i going to share my weird new habits with now? D"
6. thank you for always making me laugh. i can always rely on you for my daily dose of sillyness/randomnity, and it's comforting knowing that whenever you're around i'll no doubt be laughing. thanks for making hour-long Precalculus a little more bareable.
7. i miss you. your sarcasm and no-sass attitude are greatly missed. i miss your hugs and the familiar sight of you curled up on the radiator fast asleep. you're really good at comforting me and i just love talking to you in general. don't worry, my parents found a new place to buy pork buns. also, your bellybutton piercing freaks me out a little (it looks so uncomfy!).
8. what happened to you? we used to have such long, funny conversations, into the late night (well, regular night for you, but whatever) and then, all of a sudden, they just stopped. after waiting for your replies for so long, i gave up trying to get in touch with you. i'll probably never see you again, and in case i don't talk to you again, it was really nice to get to know you.
9. this seems like a really odd thing to say, but i miss your presence. there's this odd, intriguing gravitational pull around you that i love/am really interested in. i find that after all these people come and go from my class, i notice that you're gone the most often (even after two whole years). i miss your jolliness. it was also really, really nice to have someone else who drew around. i have so much respect your talent.
10. (i swear everyone's going to make fun of me for this one, but i don't care; i really do wish i could say it!) i am simply crazy about you. thanks for inspiring me every day; i usually listen to your music as i go to school, and i find your voice very soothing. apparently i often pass near your house on my way to volleyball practice (not sure you live there, though), and i really hope i run into/get to meet you one day! thanks for always making me so happy.

nine things about yourself.

1. my feet don't reach the floor when i sit on the bus.
2. i try my best to be happy each day.
3. i often feel sad.
4. i love everything about Autumn.
5. i take pleasure in the smallest things in life.
6. i don't like it when people give me expensive gifts.
7. my two favourite kinds of people are lefties and Filipinos. this is probably because i'm almost both, but not quite either.
8. clear skies and cool weather put me in an uncannily good mood.
9. i love making people smile.

eight ways to win your heart.

1. be a kind person.
2. make me smile.
3. make me feel appreciated.
4. understand or at least accept me/my bizarre sense of humour.
5. be either left-handed or Filipino.
6. enjoy what you do.
7. be open to me.
8. be Jesse McCartney.

seven things that cross your mind a lot.

1. "hahahahahahahahahaha"
2. "OTL"
3. "maybe if i had just done ____ differently, it wouldn't have ended up this way."
4. "i love you."
5. "i'm hungry."
6. "yay, this is so yummy!"
7. "what do i do now?"

six things you do before you fall asleep.

1. put my head on the pillow and brush my hand under my head so my i know my hair's neat.
2. pray, sometimes.
3. switch the side i want to sleep on at least once.
4. think about how comfy i am.
5. listen for the buzzing of my computer to stop so i know it's shut down.
6. listen to the trickle of my fish tank filter and close my eyes.

five people who mean a lot.
1. Mom
2. Dad
3. Cat
4. Ken
5. God/my muse (don't think that counts as a person, but whatever)

four things you're wearing right now.

1. "Tree Huggers United" shirt
2. yellow underwear
3. "JV Volleyball '08" sweatshirt
4. grey soffe shorts
5. pink fuzzy slippers that are way too big for me

three songs that you listen to often.

1. "Leavin'" by Jesse McCartney
2. "Honestly" by Cartel
3. "As You Sleep" by Something Corporate

two things you want to do before you die.

1. fall in love.
2. learn how to make delicious beef stew.

one confession.

i enjoy writing.

starting out

just thought i'd get one of these blogs so i can have a healthy dosage of non-analytical words in my life. =)

it feels kind of nice.