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Friday, October 31, 2008
i want to go back so badly.
incoming rant.
so. last year, i attended the Student Diversity and Leadership Conference with three of my friends. after the three days were over and i returned home (where i stayed passionately SDLC-sick for over two months), i realized how truly blessed i was for having been able to attend. i feel like i gained a better understanding of myself and my opinions, and i had met a bunch of really great people. SDLC was like a second home for me, even though i had only been there for three days. i knew that given the chance, i would go back in a heartbeat. would. this year, more people signed up than the four of last year, and there is a limit for the program that only allows four students to attend (priority is of course given to students who have not gone). two girls who have never attended were picked, which i was okay with. they're my friends, i want them to have such a great experience themselves. but in addition, two of my friends from the year before were again selected. the other friend of mine who went to the conference last year is actually spending the year abroad in China; so, as the only girl who attended last year who wasn't selected again, i feel upset, left out, and so, so jealous. yeah, i'm happy for them that they get to go again, but i feel like i've never been more envious of anyone in my entire life. maybe if i had only pushed the head of my school to let me go, i would have been picked. so much resentment...
oh god, i am so jealous.
so. last year, i attended the Student Diversity and Leadership Conference with three of my friends. after the three days were over and i returned home (where i stayed passionately SDLC-sick for over two months), i realized how truly blessed i was for having been able to attend. i feel like i gained a better understanding of myself and my opinions, and i had met a bunch of really great people. SDLC was like a second home for me, even though i had only been there for three days. i knew that given the chance, i would go back in a heartbeat. would. this year, more people signed up than the four of last year, and there is a limit for the program that only allows four students to attend (priority is of course given to students who have not gone). two girls who have never attended were picked, which i was okay with. they're my friends, i want them to have such a great experience themselves. but in addition, two of my friends from the year before were again selected. the other friend of mine who went to the conference last year is actually spending the year abroad in China; so, as the only girl who attended last year who wasn't selected again, i feel upset, left out, and so, so jealous. yeah, i'm happy for them that they get to go again, but i feel like i've never been more envious of anyone in my entire life. maybe if i had only pushed the head of my school to let me go, i would have been picked. so much resentment...
oh god, i am so jealous.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
most useless entry ever
i am currently eating the most enjoyable guava of my entire life. i am so happy right now.
in other news, this "Scribe" layout reminds me of steampunk. i like it a lot. :)
okay, time to whip up some non-fail sauce and get to work! goodnight!
in other news, this "Scribe" layout reminds me of steampunk. i like it a lot. :)
okay, time to whip up some non-fail sauce and get to work! goodnight!
Monday, October 27, 2008
ten things
ten things you wish you could say to ten different people right now.
1. i miss you terribly. it has been a pretty long while since we last spoke, but maybe i just need to learn how to let you go. i'd really rather not, though; you're so dear to me that your absence kind of makes me feel like i've lost a part of myself. i hope you're not changing too much while you're away. thank you for always being there for me and making me feel like the weirdest person in the world, but at the same time kind of adequate. p.s. i'm SO sorry i haven't sent you any mail yet.
2. no doubt you're one of my best friends in the world, but sometimes i feel like you don't really want me around, that i'm just weighing you down. i sometimes get the vibe that you don't really want that hug, or to talk, and that you're just humouring me. please open up to me, let me know what's up. i really care about you.
3. i feel like out of all my schoolmates, you "get" me the most. i can always trust you to relate to what i'm trying to say, and you always seem to understand; even when i don't. your cuddles are incredibly comforting, and i'm not sure how i'd get through the day without them. and also, thanks for making me feel like i'm something special. at the same time, compliments and praise make me feel awfully uncomfortable... thank you, though.
4. i miss you so much. it's kind of odd that i still think of you so much, since it's been over three and a half years since you've left my life, but i can't help it. you've taught me so much and i really do miss you. your beautiful personality and strength amazed and inspired me. i'm sorry i haven't kept the promise i made to myself to do well in school after you left.
5. i can easily see you often, but still, i miss hanging out/goofing off with you, and the world just seems to be getting bigger and bigger without you here. now's the time when i should be learning to be independent, but i miss having a role model. who am i going to share my weird new habits with now? D"
6. thank you for always making me laugh. i can always rely on you for my daily dose of sillyness/randomnity, and it's comforting knowing that whenever you're around i'll no doubt be laughing. thanks for making hour-long Precalculus a little more bareable.
7. i miss you. your sarcasm and no-sass attitude are greatly missed. i miss your hugs and the familiar sight of you curled up on the radiator fast asleep. you're really good at comforting me and i just love talking to you in general. don't worry, my parents found a new place to buy pork buns. also, your bellybutton piercing freaks me out a little (it looks so uncomfy!).
8. what happened to you? we used to have such long, funny conversations, into the late night (well, regular night for you, but whatever) and then, all of a sudden, they just stopped. after waiting for your replies for so long, i gave up trying to get in touch with you. i'll probably never see you again, and in case i don't talk to you again, it was really nice to get to know you.
9. this seems like a really odd thing to say, but i miss your presence. there's this odd, intriguing gravitational pull around you that i love/am really interested in. i find that after all these people come and go from my class, i notice that you're gone the most often (even after two whole years). i miss your jolliness. it was also really, really nice to have someone else who drew around. i have so much respect your talent.
10. (i swear everyone's going to make fun of me for this one, but i don't care; i really do wish i could say it!) i am simply crazy about you. thanks for inspiring me every day; i usually listen to your music as i go to school, and i find your voice very soothing. apparently i often pass near your house on my way to volleyball practice (not sure you live there, though), and i really hope i run into/get to meet you one day! thanks for always making me so happy.
nine things about yourself.
1. my feet don't reach the floor when i sit on the bus.
2. i try my best to be happy each day.
3. i often feel sad.
4. i love everything about Autumn.
5. i take pleasure in the smallest things in life.
6. i don't like it when people give me expensive gifts.
7. my two favourite kinds of people are lefties and Filipinos. this is probably because i'm almost both, but not quite either.
8. clear skies and cool weather put me in an uncannily good mood.
9. i love making people smile.
eight ways to win your heart.
1. be a kind person.
2. make me smile.
3. make me feel appreciated.
4. understand or at least accept me/my bizarre sense of humour.
5. be either left-handed or Filipino.
6. enjoy what you do.
7. be open to me.
8. be Jesse McCartney.
seven things that cross your mind a lot.
1. "hahahahahahahahahaha"
2. "OTL"
3. "maybe if i had just done ____ differently, it wouldn't have ended up this way."
4. "i love you."
5. "i'm hungry."
6. "yay, this is so yummy!"
7. "what do i do now?"
six things you do before you fall asleep.
1. put my head on the pillow and brush my hand under my head so my i know my hair's neat.
2. pray, sometimes.
3. switch the side i want to sleep on at least once.
4. think about how comfy i am.
5. listen for the buzzing of my computer to stop so i know it's shut down.
6. listen to the trickle of my fish tank filter and close my eyes.
five people who mean a lot.
1. Mom
2. Dad
3. Cat
4. Ken
5. God/my muse (don't think that counts as a person, but whatever)
four things you're wearing right now.
1. "Tree Huggers United" shirt
2. yellow underwear
3. "JV Volleyball '08" sweatshirt
4. grey soffe shorts
5. pink fuzzy slippers that are way too big for me
three songs that you listen to often.
1. "Leavin'" by Jesse McCartney
2. "Honestly" by Cartel
3. "As You Sleep" by Something Corporate
two things you want to do before you die.
1. fall in love.
2. learn how to make delicious beef stew.
one confession.
i enjoy writing.
1. i miss you terribly. it has been a pretty long while since we last spoke, but maybe i just need to learn how to let you go. i'd really rather not, though; you're so dear to me that your absence kind of makes me feel like i've lost a part of myself. i hope you're not changing too much while you're away. thank you for always being there for me and making me feel like the weirdest person in the world, but at the same time kind of adequate. p.s. i'm SO sorry i haven't sent you any mail yet.
2. no doubt you're one of my best friends in the world, but sometimes i feel like you don't really want me around, that i'm just weighing you down. i sometimes get the vibe that you don't really want that hug, or to talk, and that you're just humouring me. please open up to me, let me know what's up. i really care about you.
3. i feel like out of all my schoolmates, you "get" me the most. i can always trust you to relate to what i'm trying to say, and you always seem to understand; even when i don't. your cuddles are incredibly comforting, and i'm not sure how i'd get through the day without them. and also, thanks for making me feel like i'm something special. at the same time, compliments and praise make me feel awfully uncomfortable... thank you, though.
4. i miss you so much. it's kind of odd that i still think of you so much, since it's been over three and a half years since you've left my life, but i can't help it. you've taught me so much and i really do miss you. your beautiful personality and strength amazed and inspired me. i'm sorry i haven't kept the promise i made to myself to do well in school after you left.
5. i can easily see you often, but still, i miss hanging out/goofing off with you, and the world just seems to be getting bigger and bigger without you here. now's the time when i should be learning to be independent, but i miss having a role model. who am i going to share my weird new habits with now? D"
6. thank you for always making me laugh. i can always rely on you for my daily dose of sillyness/randomnity, and it's comforting knowing that whenever you're around i'll no doubt be laughing. thanks for making hour-long Precalculus a little more bareable.
7. i miss you. your sarcasm and no-sass attitude are greatly missed. i miss your hugs and the familiar sight of you curled up on the radiator fast asleep. you're really good at comforting me and i just love talking to you in general. don't worry, my parents found a new place to buy pork buns. also, your bellybutton piercing freaks me out a little (it looks so uncomfy!).
8. what happened to you? we used to have such long, funny conversations, into the late night (well, regular night for you, but whatever) and then, all of a sudden, they just stopped. after waiting for your replies for so long, i gave up trying to get in touch with you. i'll probably never see you again, and in case i don't talk to you again, it was really nice to get to know you.
9. this seems like a really odd thing to say, but i miss your presence. there's this odd, intriguing gravitational pull around you that i love/am really interested in. i find that after all these people come and go from my class, i notice that you're gone the most often (even after two whole years). i miss your jolliness. it was also really, really nice to have someone else who drew around. i have so much respect your talent.
10. (i swear everyone's going to make fun of me for this one, but i don't care; i really do wish i could say it!) i am simply crazy about you. thanks for inspiring me every day; i usually listen to your music as i go to school, and i find your voice very soothing. apparently i often pass near your house on my way to volleyball practice (not sure you live there, though), and i really hope i run into/get to meet you one day! thanks for always making me so happy.
nine things about yourself.
1. my feet don't reach the floor when i sit on the bus.
2. i try my best to be happy each day.
3. i often feel sad.
4. i love everything about Autumn.
5. i take pleasure in the smallest things in life.
6. i don't like it when people give me expensive gifts.
7. my two favourite kinds of people are lefties and Filipinos. this is probably because i'm almost both, but not quite either.
8. clear skies and cool weather put me in an uncannily good mood.
9. i love making people smile.
eight ways to win your heart.
1. be a kind person.
2. make me smile.
3. make me feel appreciated.
4. understand or at least accept me/my bizarre sense of humour.
5. be either left-handed or Filipino.
6. enjoy what you do.
7. be open to me.
8. be Jesse McCartney.
seven things that cross your mind a lot.
1. "hahahahahahahahahaha"
2. "OTL"
3. "maybe if i had just done ____ differently, it wouldn't have ended up this way."
4. "i love you."
5. "i'm hungry."
6. "yay, this is so yummy!"
7. "what do i do now?"
six things you do before you fall asleep.
1. put my head on the pillow and brush my hand under my head so my i know my hair's neat.
2. pray, sometimes.
3. switch the side i want to sleep on at least once.
4. think about how comfy i am.
5. listen for the buzzing of my computer to stop so i know it's shut down.
6. listen to the trickle of my fish tank filter and close my eyes.
five people who mean a lot.
1. Mom
2. Dad
3. Cat
4. Ken
5. God/my muse (don't think that counts as a person, but whatever)
four things you're wearing right now.
1. "Tree Huggers United" shirt
2. yellow underwear
3. "JV Volleyball '08" sweatshirt
4. grey soffe shorts
5. pink fuzzy slippers that are way too big for me
three songs that you listen to often.
1. "Leavin'" by Jesse McCartney
2. "Honestly" by Cartel
3. "As You Sleep" by Something Corporate
two things you want to do before you die.
1. fall in love.
2. learn how to make delicious beef stew.
one confession.
i enjoy writing.
starting out
just thought i'd get one of these blogs so i can have a healthy dosage of non-analytical words in my life. =)
it feels kind of nice.
it feels kind of nice.
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